24 August 2006

Pete wins BB 7 UK!

Ok, so I hate reality TV. I admit to getting addicted to the first 'Temptation Island', but I can't stand 'Survivor' etc... However, when I was staying with my friends in the UK 'Big Brother 7' was on, and EVERYONE seemed to watch it... so I did too. And... yip, got addicted. It was the people and well... Pete! Putting someone with Tourette's Syndrome on the show was an ingenious move. Yeah, that sounds harsh etc, but its true - he was brilliant to watch!! He was a funny guy regardless of all the "wankers" he threw in. I know he was the favourite to win, but I am still uber happy he did!! You never know how these shows will turn out, especially with all the twists and turns in this series - everything from the house next door, Susie and her winning golden ticket, Aislyene coming back into the BB house, and Nikki getting voted back IN to the house...

I headed back home July, but have used this website every so-often to keep track of the wackiness: http://bigbrother.digitalspy.co.uk/

Anyways, snaps to Pete, who is now 100,000 pounds richer and a whole-heap-of-famous!

10 August 2006

Lovelife on hold

There is a boy. I met him over a year ago now. In fact, I had to really think to answer that. Then it came to me: I met him on the weekend of my friend's birthday. Actually, I briefly met him on the occasion of another friend's birthday, but that was just in passing. This meeting was a whole weekend. After that weekend, there were other get-togethers with friends and he'd be there... At this point I should add he is a friend's brother (just another slight complication for me to consider). We got on/get on really well. Lots in common... But lots that isn't. Still, the attraction must be there because we tend to flirt like crazy - usually after our first drink or so.

Initially I was oblivious I was even flirting - I was just "kidding around". Then people started saying "You two get on well, don't you??!!" and "Are you two a couple?" etc. Then there were a couple of incidents that led beyond flirting. Of course neither of us talk about what's going on. He certainly isn't pursuing me. But then I'm not chasing him either. The problem is not only do I not know what he wants, I don't know what I want. I am scared it will be a case of: wanting something when I don't have it... Then not wanting it when I've got it. (I could be wrong though!)

I don't do relationships... I've never had a proper one. I guess that scares me. And with regards to him, he's been married and is now separated. I think of him though; christ, I'm writing this about him! I just don't know if he thinks about me! Some friends say I should just go for it. They remind me that he is rather shy and is used to the girl making the move. I'm not adverse to making the first moves - as far as things go, I've made a lot of first moves. I just don't know if I want to be the one to start something *real*. It's like I want that responsibility to rest with him! My morbid thinking is, at least if/when I screw things up, at least it was him that started it! I want some sign from him that he isn't just 'going with the flow' where I'm concerned.

Don't get me wrong, he is such a sweet, caring, kind, strong guy. But I don't want to be the commanding force all the time, and he is used to domineering women. It may be stupid, but I want to be pursued. And I am tired of mixed-messages. I was planning on asking him to come out with us on Friday night (if, as per previous entry I do indeed head out for some cocktails and dancing). If all goes according to the past, then I'll end up with him, and I'll still be in this messy-head-space the next day... Except it will be messier! Perhaps I go out and enjoy things without him there... No doubt I'll end up texting him at some point *sigh*.

Ok, enough of this drivel/dribble. I'm more than pathetic.
But that is the story of the boy.

09 August 2006


I just love the film Howl's Moving Castle! I can just watch it and rewatch it like no other Miyazaki et al film. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy all of the Studio Ghibli films, but there is something about HMC that gets me every time!

Which reminds me, I borrowed 'The Cat Returns' off my friends in Christchurch and watched that in the weekend. I watched it with my Mum and we both really enjoyed it - I think we found talking cats a lot funnier than was necessary, but we had been drinking wine... Still, really cute movie *smiles*